Future Self

I, like most people I know, love quotes. It's nice to know that what I'm feeling can be said in a less rambling and more succinct kind of way. I also find that some quotes really resonate with me and help me focus- like a mantra (which is a fancy way of saying some thing  is totally stuck in my head and I'm trying to maintain a positive attitude so this thing that is stuck will no be a force for good instead of evil. Or at least that's how I think of it). I like this particular 'mantra' from Dori:

 
I was messing around on my computer today and opened my 'stickies' and I found this quote. It just popped up on a saved sticky note. I had completely forgotten about it and now I'm remembering why I saved it.

Don't you love surprises like that? I do. It's like my past self putting something wonderful away for my future self to find. I did that, quite literally, one time years ago without really meaning to. I put a $50 bill (don't ask where I got it from, I have no clue) behind a photo in a frame. I was still living at home with my three younger sisters at the time and I have a theory about why I did it that has something to do with all my stuff ending up under a particular sister's bed, but I won't get into that now. Regardless of the reason, I totally forgot about the money (what? me? forgetful? no) and years later, a few new living situations later, I was unpacking a box and found the frame. I thought it was time to put a new picture in it and whamo- there was $50. At that time, I really needed that $50 (starving college student and all) and it was such a fabulous surprise. Just like this little sticky note.

Right at this moment, I'm really feeling the part about 'ignoring our restlessness'. What's making you restless? What are you ignoring? What spark is hoping to light a fire while you kindly tamp it into the ground?

Not to imply that you're tamping. You might not be tamping. Maybe you've grabbed a fire extinguisher and have blown the holy heck out of that spark in an effort to deny yourself what you truly desire. Or maybe you are lucky, maybe the fire burns. Maybe you let yourself do what you love. Your future self will thank you for that.

From:  http://modernhepburn.tumblr.com/

 

 

 

 I have been trying to remember this when things aren't going .. easily or the way I expected them to. Like my runs this week. They have not been going well. Luckily, I'm more than someone who runs and I don't do it for a living otherwise I'd be having a major existential crisis right now.

I'm trying to remember what I love to do, and I'm trying to remember to go out and do it. Which is why I'm so grateful for yoga, cooking, teaching and reading. All things I love to do and I'm lucky to get to do, if that makes any sense.

You know what else I love to do? Draw with crayons. It's not totally socially acceptable to do so as an adult, but that's where teaching really comes into play. Not only do I get to have an awesome (but exhausting) job that I love, but I occasionally get to draw with crayons too. Booyah.

-m